yoyo.x)) lalalas.

YESTERDAY::

went to queensway wid jesse ytd.after dat we headed down to novena..pei col work awhile and jesse went home.. while i went to meet my cousin. and after dat, i went back and meet col for, err, dinner cum supper. LOLS. jesse and me went crazyy over BAGS larr. hmm. jesse, if u reali like it den, go ahead. ALI TING NI DAO DI! anythg, I SETTLE FOR YOU. LOLS. hahas. i sound so..x) LOLS.


TODAY::

lols. i got fun89 killed today mornin. hahas. i tried to bring it back to original state but i din succeed, instead i ended up meetin se7en late. x.x lols. dumb.col tried to act nerd, jesse 'didnt wear shorts' and der best of all, py encourage ppl to quarrel. LOLS. interestin ehh? hahs.


when i got dere, =DDD i was fcukin irritated, by dat fcukin black face, and der fcukin attitude. which i totally dun understand y i deserve sucha treatment.forget it. da ren bi ji xiao ren guo. i forgive her. we studied dere till around 1plus and headed to skool for chem prac. remedial. FUNN! x)) beautiful colours. and i got a sweet peck on my cheek frm darlin Naix.!! shalalas.


hahs. i tot after der prac will be de end of everythg, hu noes, HAHAHAS. even worst. wahhh. i canot stand it larr. dat, dat, fcukin attitude. arghh. BLAH BLAHHHHH~!! come on, if reali dats der case, PLS, blardy hell step outta my life!


(sry bout all der 'F's. but i juz cant take it and longer.)


hahas. thnks LLX for being my listenin ears for today. and difficult guy for' correctin my mistake'. and chicky for not scoldin me. LOLS.

had a great luff last nite. x)) dumbdumb.


LOLs. i tink i screwed my paper one. i tink i wrote quite well, but so sad, ITS OUT OF POINT! how dumb can i be. hahas. oh well.. dats it.. its O lvl, and i screwed it up.HAHAS. NICE!!


i sat next to daddy durin der exam. he keep shakin his leg. arghh. since last time, whenever he sits next to me and he start shakin his leg, i'll haf der tendency to do der same. which is like, so crude. =x im a gurl after all...


watched Xmen wif darls after der paper. 4/5 stars! I LOVE IT! shalalas. i love storm & iceman.=DD and of cuz, wolverine.. OMG larr. speechless... oh my dear wolverine, will you pls marry me? LOLS. oh ya! not forgettin der furball. hahas. =x den der ppl in der cinema is interestin.. dere's one part dat everybody actuali clapped together. LOLS.


eww.. how sweet to haf a guy awaitin under ur block.. juz to pass to you ur favourite lollipop dat he bought for you.. surprisin you.. aint he sweet? but yet you din appreciate him. !hctib


hahahas. bestie is damn damn farni ytd cann. hahas. LOLS. esp when he 'act cute'. super farni! hahas. chi pu tao bu tu pu tao pi. x)) but one thing, im damn disappointed.. he's startin to show signs of his gayness lerr. =x NO! im going to make him straight again! not for his sake, im juz afraid der few cute guys out dere mite be attracted to him. OH NO~


chicken, dogs and frog likes drawing.. but pig dont like.=x hahas.

i did stay at home for der whole today. but.. errr. i didnt study much. =x lols. duno y, juz cant concentrate. =x sian x3.


im super pissed now. i have no idea y. =x hais. forget it larr. mayb, some ppl reali duno how to appreciate ur effort. ITS OKIE. PERFECTLY FINE. damn you. fcuk.


sth i've gotta say, BESTIE IS DUMB! REALLY DUMB.=x lols. you'll definitely luff until your tummy aches when u noe wat he did. lols. stupid bestie! hahas. x))
oh ya, not forgettin, Cheefun is the world's smallest mammal! lols. you've gotta admite chicky.

amaths tution today. he's late again.=x lols. seriously today, i make him damn pek chek lorr. 1stly, im super sleepy. 2ndly, i duno ALOT of things. or mayb i shld say, i forgot all my basics. althou he didnt flare up, and was still very patient, but i got a feelin dat if i ask him some stupid qns like, wats der formula for gradient, he'll have a heart attack an faint on der spot. hais. sorry Daniel.. =x


met Dewi after tution. im late dis time round. lols.=x went to Bugis and P.S. and as usual, she still made me luff.=D and now, im tired. super duper tiredd.


O lvl Chinese is on mon. i swear i wont step out of der hse tml. intensive chinese tml. althou it mite not help much.. but at least, i wont feel dat guilty for not studyin. =x


yupp. mayb jesse's rite.. mayb she's reali stronger den we thought she is.. i shall not worry dat much.. since i've alr started off, mayb i shall continue step by step, bit by bit.. bestie mite not agree wif wat i'm gonna do. but, i still tink dis will be der best for her. =) lets see..

initially i tot today's der last day of skool.. im afraid im wrong. still need to go back to skool for der 1st week of holidays. EVERYDAY. =(( eww.


got my report bk back. err. okie larr. not VERY bad larr. got improvement.. but its still far far away from wat is expected of me. yupp. guess i gonna work doubly hard durin der holidays. =x sian x3.


my moodswing today was terrible. sorry gurls.=x i juz cant get dat thing off my mind. hais. i duno y im worryin so much when it has nth to do wif me.. hais. damn.


juz a stupid lame joke by bestie dat made me smile.. (=
it goes...


bestie:: wat has big ears and long trunks but is not an elephant...?
me:: hmmm. dunoo larr. =x
bestie:: a baby elephant.x))
lols. stupid bestie. dumb but cute. hahs.=x

oh well. i shall not let dose farkin bitches ruin my mood. =DD


gettin back PPR tml. lols. i got a bad feelin dat my mum's gonna nag and nag and nag non-stop. aiya. watever it is, tml will be der last day of term 2. June holidays, here i come! =DD


stayed back after skool to watch match. yupp. it rained so heavily.. got drenched. damn larr. v paiseh larr. my gurlfrens shld noe y.=x argh.


oh ya, btw, my shuffle made a new fren! a black nano! hahas. shalalas.


he injured himself. i hope he's alrite. take care ehh. =D


did i do der right thing? hais. im damn guilty can. now, im regrettin.. i tink i did sth reali reali wrong. sorry gurl.. i shldnt haf told u dat. =x

lookin back. hahas. im so dumb. so gulible. to even tink dat you'll ever gif me an ans. im stupid larr. i shld noe dat wat you are thinkin at dat point. i shld haf noe wat der ans is..

waste my time goin to skool only. damn.


im in lurfe wid chem practical. so fun larr. and der colours of der solutions is like, so nice lorr. =D orange, yellow, green, blue, blahh blahh. so wonderful!


i slept for der whole afternoon. hus gonna pei me tonite?lalas. its fun online tday. somehow. thnks arr LJH. =x hahas. lalas.


shld i tell her? i duno.. i cant bring myself to day it. i dun wanna c her hurt. i noe she wont show it.. but, she'll breakdown. its for sure.. i duno how.. im afraid dat if she finds out ltr, things mite be even worst. hais. duno larr. freak.

eww. BORING BORING BORING. =x


and guess wat? im promoted to a hairdresser! hahas. Mr Melvin Kong wanted to be my 1st customer today. he handed me a scissors and asked me to cut his hair.LOL.


went to darlin inverse's hse today. widd jesse. hahas. simply cuz we got nth to do and nowhere to go. jesse stole sth VERY IMPT to her.. frm herr. hahahs. rite zhen? 'the day you went away. =xx'


shalalas. im so high last nite. hahahas. bitchy bestie! cheerios! =DD lalalas.


sorry. i feel so guilty. i noe you mite not get to read dis.. but i still hafta say, SORRY, i've neglected your feelings..

i finally finished watchin der show last nite..
eww. I WANT A DEVIL TOO~!
jesse and me went gaga-in over der show for der whole day in skool. =x


wahahas. went crazy early in der mornin. i juz lurfe yvonne soooo much.. hahas. i gaf her a few kisses today. but somehow, she rejected all. =(( eww. im heartbroken. =x


mr ow yong started teachin alr. yupp. somehow managed to stay attentive in class thru out der lesson. =DD i learn sth new today! shalalas.


went to watch the davinci code. my 1st time watchin a NC16 show in an cinema.=x lols. im 16 dis yr. mind you.=P well, der movie isnt reali my type of movie larr. its excitin, yarr. but, somehow i dun like it. jesse, we'll rather watch 10 times of our show again at home ehh? =x lols.


i got a bad feelin im gonna get into another depression. but im gonna pull thru w/o ur help dis time. i noe i can. you noe i can do it, rite bestie? =DD yupp. i can! shalalas.

can someone juz tell me wats dat feelin all about?


mayb it'll be better i could juz put der past behind. dere's no way i can compare now wif den.. no way.. yupp. can i juz walk round and round in my memories and not see wats ahead? cuz, im afraid to noe wats up next.

am i really dat not impt to you? or is it dat you cant be bothered?
i dun like to tell you. i etah uoy!


we nvr tok for almost 2 days. not even a single msg.. dun you tink dere's sth wrong? y isit always me who take der initiative to tok to you, to msg you? i dun understand. is dis reali wat we called, 'besties'?

finally i've got sth off my mind.!
thanks boy. sry for askin dat dumb qns. =x mayb like wat u've said, i shld ask you earlier. shalalas. <33`
>=/ dun call me a silly gurl.you are der one hu make me go dumb. =x


hais. wats dat on my mind? sucks. der past feelings are comin backk. but it aint gonna be dat easy dis time round. i've gotta get dat off my mind if not, i'll haf to fight it myself. =x he wont be helpin me anymore like last time.. its not der same anymore.


you juz simply care no more. i hate you lidat. do sth pls.. but i guess u wont.

i totally cant rmb wat i did in class today. all i can recall is, chinese, chinese, chinese..


den yarr. went home and sleep den go for tution lerr. sian. its a boring day today.


cutelilconveration::
me:my mum bought me a puppy!=D
bestie:really? den you named it as....?
me: =( i didnt haf chance to name it. i killed it for and cook curry for lunch alr. x))
hahas.how dumb can bestie get? he actuali believed me. =x LOL.


when will my happiness come to me?

you were der 1st to make me smile today. without fail =D


ohwell. i wasted my time gg to skool today. yupp. except der NE quiz part was kinda fun eh. hahas. im a EXPERT builder alrite! =D hahas.


after skool we[se7en] bought a choco ice cream cake and headed to py's hse to celebrate her belated belated bday. lols. yupps. watched a show, and we had fun. =D we managed to trick py, hahas. we were afraid dat she mite find out, but jesse was rite, py aint dat smart afterall. =x lols.

and juz like wat colleen said, he dun care bout me. not at all. rite? yupp. its seriously true. no doubt =D


honestly speakin, im totally not in der mood today. yupp. i hate dis. i hate to put up all der fake smiles on my face. but, i had to. juz any simple comments made by anyone can juz make me break down. im tearin up inside.

once again, i cried. all becos of you. THANKS.

wahahas. social etiquette course today. =D der tok was somehow borin larr. juz dat der 1st speaker was a lil entertainin. den yarr, we started blue-tooth-ing each other. lols. it sounds lame. but at least it kept us entertain for 2 hrs. =x after der tok we had our meal. hahas. se7en oh se7en! and plus clem, melvin and ronghan. gosh. der food is horrendous lorr. damn larr.=x hahas. thnks mummy teddy for cuttin my chicken chop for me into smaller pieces! lurfeya! and not forgettin, melvin for entertainin ur. lols. =x

der thing ended pretty early.. and we had a hard time decidin where to go.. at last, we decided to go to changi airport. sat down at BK and we tok for a couple of hours.. yupp. we gossiped. we hadd fun ehh.=DD shalalas. den we headed home.. had a great time wif my gurlfrens. lurfe you gurls! =DD

i realised somethings cant be forced. it'll be better if you dun care.. it'll come back to you one day. =D

hais. i suddenly feel so.. err. i duno.. fake? duno larr. huat, u shld noe wat i mean bahh. =x damn larr. freak! =c

oh well. boring day in skool today. nth interestin. yupp.

ohya. juz to let you noe, i had enuf. im not gonna bear wid it anymore. since you seemed like you cant be bothered, i shall not care too rite? yupp. take your time and if you feel like tokin to me den tok.. till den, juz c my mood bahh. c whether i wanna tok to you anot. =x

im tired. reali reali very tired. i wanna take a break.. but it seems like i cant. everytime i c you, my eyes will be locked on you automatically. no matter how i try to get it off, i cant. i wan a long slp.. i wanna continue my dream, cuz dats der only time i can c us together.. if i have a choice, i'll choose not to wake up. do you still rmb you still owe me an ans? or its alr off your mind, cuz you've alr haf a ans frm der very start.

lalas. ive grown up quite alot.=D rite chicky? hahas. okie larr. i ought to thank someone. i cant reali rmb his name, he cant oso. =x. i tink is ang fun fun isit? hahas. you watch me grow up slowly.. i took quite a long time, but you are patient wif me ehh. =D now im tryin to get off your support and stand by myself. you said ive started rite, and now lets c wats next bahh. im gonna be independent one day. yes! i will! hmm. for der time being, still let me cling on you.. alrite? hahas. =x i noe you'll say yes. xP thnks my darling. <33
hguoht sgniht era tsomla kcab ot lamron, i llits eon tad i nud evah hcum emit tfel. tub i tnow kniht oot hcum eromyna. mi ton annog eb tad yllis eromyna.

colleen arr, i reali didnt keep much from you alrite. dun say i didnt tell you anythg b4 k. ask yourself, i hardly kept anythg from you lorr. so, dere's no need to get pekchek. no need to tink too much oso.. enjoy your life now. =D if de day comes, i'll tell you alrite.

i can no longer show you a real smile. i've lost it.

i barely slept last nite.darn.but, lalalas.=x im not gonna say anythg. =D

wahh. der moment colleen saw me in der mornin, she started luffin. when i step into der assembly ground, jesse went 'ali! act cute arr?'. durin der feedback session, naix said, 'ali! you look so CUTE!'. and der best part, when we go back to class after der feedback, howen asked, 'alicious, you hair drop arr? HAHA.' oh godd. all thnks to my haircut. arghh. >:(

hahas. as wat ive expected, ive screwed up ALL der papers. HAHAS. ( includin chi. =( ) damn it larr. but im kinda happy, thou i failed my combined humans, I PASSED MY SS! wahahas. thou its not wif flyin colours, but i noe, i can do better next time! yupp. =)) and my i got an A2 for my P.O.A! wahahas. oh, my A finally came back to me! lalas. my emaths sucked. i fail my amaths..=( im gonna work hard on it! 20, 40.... 60.... 80! oh yeahhh~

watched MI3 wid jesse and huat after skool. hahas. lucky i didnt miss it. its nice.=)) oh well, jus dat i sat beside some pathetic skcald gays.eww.gross! der guy in der show is soo cute. not Ethan, but his teamate.=x hahas. der big black guy is not bad oso.=x.
after der show, we heeded olehers' advice. we put wat we've learnt in der show to a good use. hahas. all thnks to jesse. =x LOL.

dere's no way im gonna give in anymore. ive done enuf. even if i reali did sth wrong, i tink ive alr tried my best to make it up alr. i gave in so much, its so not me can. dont go too farr. its off my limits. i'll leave my hand dere, you take it or leave it. but, i cant wait long. dun test my patience.


shalalas. dun worry chicky! i fail alot oso lorr. =x so, CHEER UP! work hard der next time round! we can do it! oh yeah! =DD


lastly, not forgettin, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN PEIYING!!

ahhhhh~ im boredd. =x

i stayed at home for der whole day.
omg. dats so not me lorr. =s
i had my haircut. its likeeee. errr. i duno.. no comments. =x i miss my fringe.wahhhhhh~

you stupid boy. i knew dat dere's sth wrong wid you dis few days.
stad red yaw i detnaw sgniht ot eb. gniruop tuo lla rouy sborp ot em.mi yppah. mi dalg. i etim ton depleh hcum. tub mi dalg uoy tad ouy tlef retteb. nud yrrow hcum. =D
dun tink so much. juz rmb wat i've told you. SMILE =D

at 1st i tot i'll rot at home today.
wahahas. but py asked me out! wat a suprise =x
met up wif her and colleen at orchard mrt.

hahas. we had lunch at fareast.
arghh. im so jealous cann? dat cute guy keep lookin at py larr. and hahaas, py is so... errr.. lols. she cant differentiate between a pineapple and a papaya. she kept callin der pineapple, a papaya.. LOL. =x

are you serious bout wat you told me last nite?
i tink so.. i dun tink so.. i duno. im blur. freakin blur.
ahhhh~ im going crazyy. im madddddd!

hahas. i love all der pics we took today.=DD shalalas.

we met up at 10. boarded der train one after another.. den we went headed to sentosa! siloso beach.. not long after, Py and Yl came to join us. and, se7en of us agaiin~ oh yea. hahaas.

i love piggyback-ing ppl in der water. hahas. trust me, its fun alrite. =D and we playedd some dumb ball game larr. hahas.we borrowed der ball from some guys, one of dem look like ck. hahahas. we suspect dat he was peeping at audrey all along. =x. hahas.

on our way back, colleen gave drey and me a fright lorr. lols. she juz collapsed in der bus.wahh. stupid gurl, nvr gif us warnin 1st. =x glad dat she's alrite.. she's juz hungry.. lols. and its like.. omg larr, got dis guy who's like, so cute, he asked colleen whether she's alrite.IM JEALOUS.=x lols.

oh well, another day wif my darlin gurlfrens, as usual, FUN! x)) love you gurls! muackks.

wooohooo~ HAD LOTS OF FUN TODAY.
finally, we went beach-ing~
wahahas. SE7EN OH SE7EN~

At sentosa,

me and vonne.


dreyy & me.


=DD shalalas.


me and darling inverse. =x

On our way home, =(

me & jesse


me, jesse and zhen.


spastic.xP


GOTHIC~!=x


wahahs~ se7en oh se7en~ =DD


in der train. =)

lalalas. went townin wid colleen and audrey today.
wahahs. we PEEPED at some guys. =xx
[believe me, it was all audrey's idea. LOL.]
but one of der guy is reali.. cute!~ hahas.
oh well... went home early today. colleen didnt cook maggie-mee today. =( too bad our cook is not free LOLs. =xx

hais. hais. hais.
i duno wat to say to you my dear.
im speechless, totally speechless.
disappointed is der word. der only word..
its juz dat, i cant bring myself to say 'i hate you'..
i cant bring myself to walk away.. yet..
i will.. one day. im tryin hardd.

YOHOO~~ hahas. MID YR EXAMS ARE OVER. =D
shalalalas. gees.

wahahas. der seven of us went out together ytd.=D
finally.. FULL ATTENDANCE. lols.
yupps. we did haf fun.. =DD love you gurls! =DD

actuali i din reali dare to go out ytd.
thgs didnt go well before i went out.
IT BROKE! AGAIN. oh well..............

hais. mayb like wat dey say. its juz not fated. i guess im not gg to fix it again. and like wat jesse said, wait till der day i'll wear it cuz i appreciate its beauty and not cuz of other reason, den, mayb i'll go fix it.. and hope dat it wont break anymore..

sometimes you jus dun realise..wat ive wanted is not you to be dere 24/7 for me.. all i needed was you to be dere when i need someone.. i wont stop u from anythg.. but.. i juz wana private tok wif u.. it has been a long time since we last had one.. can u rmb when was it? i cant.. cuz it juz seems so long.. i dun wan anythg much.. all i wan is some tok wif u.. somone to confide to..you are juz der one.. you are my bestie.. dun you juz understand? somehow, somtimes, i juz tink dat, you juz dun seem to understand me any deeper..but it jus seems like you only noe me skin deep. nth further den dat.. can you tell me dat you noe me..? can you tell me dat, we're reali besties? im like hangin in nowhr. clueless.

wahahahs.! guess wat? LAST PAPER TML!!

hahahs. so high today.=D dis is der 1st time i 'go home'.
[hahas. dunid to understand if you dun]
wahahs. i love my 'home' and i love mummy!
and of cuz my daddy. i'll love him even more if he's not dat clumsy. =x
[can you believe he can even fall down at 'home'? oh gosh. sad but true.]
and of cuz, my sher and ning!! muacks =xx

and i mus say sth. COLLEEN ZHEN! i noe how to use der stove k! im not stupid..!! =x
arghh. stupid colleen. juz dat my hse's stove needs a lighter. =s
wahahas. i love maggi-mee and BIG bowls! =DD

i still feel so insecure despite all ur assurance..
you dont mean wat you say.. do you?
you chose to drift away.. you are reali goin outta reach..
pls dun so any further. i dun wanna lose der grip..

oh well.. it seems like der time is tickin away.. faster and faster.. pls slow it down.. i need sometime to breathe.. i cant catch up..

two more papers to go.. ;))

wahahas.it juz seems like exam juz started ytd.=x
2 papers to go and it'll be over. =))
by den, we can go PARTY-ing!! wahahas.
time wif my gurlfrens again!! <33`

hais. i cant belief i said dat to him.
althou its not der 1st time..
but its like..it juz feel so wrong dis time.
im dumb to say such things to him.
i shldnt haf even ask anythg. oh mann.
shld i get derr A pencil case? =x

countdown started i guess. time is tickin away..
i used to tink dat i hold a place in ur heart.
as wat i said. used to. its all der past.
i cant do anythg. time wont stop..
i gonna grab on to every minute now.
if not, i noe i'll regret if i dun.. =x